"Fixed"

I want to be thin
I want to see my bones
I want to disappear
I want to be weightless
I want to be invisible
I want to be sick
I want to be dark
I want to have issues
I want to be mysterious
I want to be damaged
I want to be neglected
I want to be ignored
I want to sabotage relationships
I want to be alone
I want to numb the pain
I want to be depressed
I want to be a mess
I want to be addicted
I want to isolate myself
I want to be broken
I want to be guarded
I want to succeed at failing
I want to give up
I want to close up
I want to break down
I want to go down
I want to be rejected
I want to "get cut"
I want to be wrecked
I want to binge
I want to restrict
I want to repeat
I want to be bulimic
I want to be anorexic

I don't want to be "fixed"